THE STORY

Since it is complicated to explain everything clearly from what I remember, a brief description follows with some experiences of my emerging psychosis…

TELEPATHY

The first experience went like this; I was sitting in front of the TV and staring at it for a bit and suddenly I felt the need to zap, then I arrived on a German channel (program "Pfliege]" program and there was a psychic practicing her gift . Immediately I felt a kind of relief go through me and she told me that she was in contact at that moment. Suddenly I realized she was interacting with me and resisted in the sense that I thought she shouldn't tell everything about me, which she then replied on TV by repeating what I was thinking. Then she told me that I was in a situation requiring help and that I would also receive it and that after a year everything would be fine again, which is what happened because I was admitted a month later and 3 months later I started with a one and a half year-long day therapy… Only in the coming months I was convinced that the radio and TV received my thoughts and therefore had similar experiences with the spiritual contact with the TV and radio…

A few years later I also had a telepathic experience with my brother because he was speaking my thoughts all the time. I hardly had to say anything, just letting him speak was enough. He himself knew and agreed that and actually expected that the table would also start to float…

HALLUCINATIONS

The only real hallucination I remember is that of the closing ceremonies of the Olympics. Just before that, there was a program “Summer Guests” that I was invited to watch in my opinion. They started the program by asking the viewer into the camera; "Who are you, what's your name and how did you get this far?" Then followed all kinds of fragments that seemed to be about my life, which made me very emotional. It also seemed that when people showed a kind of hay fever on TV, they indicated that they had contact with me…

After this came the closing ceremony of the Olympics and it was immediately hit, it was immediately said that it was addressed to a special Dutch boy and everything I thought was given an appropriate response by the program's commentator. For example, if I had discriminatory thoughts, it was said; "Well, of course you shouldn't start like that!" etc. Or if I thought everyone should stand hand in hand and hold on to the Olympic thoughts and unity forever from now on, they did…

Now I also had similar experiences with other programs. For example, I was always welcomed on the radio with the fact that they told me that they had a special listener and on a certain day everyone in my neighborhood had to go cycling in shorts, sleeves and caps and call if they saw me, which they did. . Or the music played responded to situations in my head and on MTV I was even told not to call them Olmy who I had contact with in my head….

Also, once a boy walked up to me and asked why he and his friends couldn't get in touch with my friends (which I only had in my head because I didn't know anyone else). To which his friends said, "Leave him alone because he hasn't figured out what's going on yet..."

THE CAFE EXPERIENCES

For some time I had been working on the book "The Adversary" by Julian May and it contained descriptions such as a time far in the future when a group of people with Meta psychic abilities who had misbehaved were banned. to the past and present, but were not satisfied with what they saw and so went further back to a Pliocene Earth to influence the present from there, which I labeled as true and proclaimed in a cafe at which I came into contact with Row a man who claimed that he had been waiting for me for several years… The conversation that followed was about a new consciousness that we both experienced and that he would be picked up by people from space who he had fled and that I had to take action and not have to wait too long with the ideas I had… We drank a lot throughout the evening, but we were not tipsy which could have happened after 15 beers… He told me that he Hey It was astonishing that for my age I had come so far with my discoveries and insights (inherited from those people from the Pliocene earth) and that I should try to catch up with him and that he would teach me more quickly. There was even talk about a course… He also kept asking if I knew who the ghost is and what the fourth dimension is to which I couldn't give a clear answer and got… The moment he left the cafe after getting his phone number given I thought I had spoken to the devil whereupon he stood in the doorway for a moment and looked at me in surprise after which I tore up the note…

A week later I was in another cafe and was talking to someone else about having cosmic contact, dreams, the stars and Nostradamus; About a crossroads that we were on and that we had to choose the right path so as not to be totally self-destructed and things like that that bothered me… Then I went to get a joint and after using it I was shaking for a long time. Suddenly I heard of that boy; "now I know what you mean by having cosmic contact" and started laughing where he said that he could help me with that trembling which also happened ... (never suffered from it again while I always had) He was also suddenly became as oversimplified and mysterious as Row and I was sure he had been taken over by him. I was rather embarrassed by his behavior and started making movements with my hands which he imitated almost in sync. I really didn't feel comfortable and resisted it until he went to the bathroom and it suddenly became very quiet in the place, nobody said what and then an acquaintance of my brother said; "it seems that he has everyone under hypnosis", which I referred to myself… Later I walked to my mother on my own and fled her house to my house because she had freaked out about me in the morning came home at six and didn't go to bed… On the train on the way home, the book “EON” by Greg Bear played in my head and I reflected that in the things that that trip happened around me and that also seemed to run synchronously, which again surprised me…

In another cafe where I took my joints during that period, I was approached by 2 users of “we know what you are going to do and think”, which I was not happy about at the time because that was a sign to me that everyone could receive my thoughts and so in my mind I kept apologizing for thoughts if they were not ethical… Later on the way there I was worried about something and suddenly a dog walked up to me and I petted and spoke in my mind that everything was going well, who then walked back to his owner who was pinning so that I started to believe that animals also received my thoughts. Such a dog appeared later in the X-Files that dealt with thought power…

I was also once eating in a cafe when the bartender pointed out to me that there was always a man waving at me that I didn't know at all and was wearing special sunglasses. More and more often I came across people on the street who waved at me and also wore sunglasses like this. I suspected they knew what was going on but never spoke to anyone…

All in all I had more and more experiences with people on the street and with radio and TV, so that I gradually started to lose contact with reality and fears started to arise. Such as fearing being silenced because I would change too much socially or that I would be picked up by higher powers by killing me so that I could serve a higher purpose. After which my mother managed to put me in touch with a psychiatrist, because I wanted to share my story, who admitted me almost immediately so that I could come back to my senses. Only the impressions I had gained were not easily forgotten and I continued to believe that what I experienced was all true…

It is also true that after a while it became so busy because of all those impressions that played in my head that I smashed my things in order to break with the situation I was in, which of course did not help. What did help is that lying on the couch I resisted with all my thought power and physical effort, making it calmer in my head and finally 1 entity remained with whom I still speak in mind…

What is also worth mentioning is that in the period before it all started, I was without finances because I was fired and I also just had my own home for the first time, so I no longer saw it all that way and therefore always became depressed that I had gone to the RIAGG to be prescribed Seroxat which I had had previous experience with. Because I thought I was depressed. But I was not taken seriously in terms of complaints so I started using weed as a self-medication, which I used sporadically before. But that didn't help either because it just made me paranoid. But I continued to use it anyway because I was of the opinion, if I use it long enough, it will all disappear. Which was not the case because a psychosis developed…