THE STORY

So welcome to my archive… about 1 sensation (1 aspect of a psychosis) in which I am often strongly convinced that it is true, but it cannot be because it is described as delusion in psychiatry. Is it real or is it just a delusion…?!

Before I became psychotic, I was much concerned with religion and problems that seemed to affect society and the world, often wishing (also to God) because I cannot express myself well that my thoughts were understood, as it were, without me knowing them. had to pronounce in so many words, suddenly it seemed to be the case and I found indications of this in my environment (some even literally through encounters with people who told me so) and I thought I had discovered a new realization what in a indicated a new level of consciousness and I had to do something with it so that several people would have the same experience (major delusions), in esotericism and predictions I found common ground with what I thought and I got ideas that those prophecies were about me with the state I was in . To this day I still believe in that experience I had and am still trying to find the next step to take, but maybe it isn't even there because it's dismissed as delusion because other people have this mechanism not realize themselves and that is exactly what I have based my website on, not to see that experience as delusion per se, but also something that a healthy person can experience as an enlightenment of consciousness that makes it easier to understand each other. Because of my conviction in my right I can be very unstable because I still allow myself to be influenced by esotericism, religion, spirituality, because there are most similarities with what was going on in me, but who also says that they are true or false like my own personal experience with that sort of thing. All in all it occupies me and I do not find an answer although I am now more and more resigned to myself that the answer to my questions (which may not or need not be answered at all) can be found in religion, something I was of the opinion that the world should get a breather in that and that my experience can sometimes offer a solution

So have fun browsing through my archive where I mainly talk about my delusions.